I have to say, this is the longest I’ve gone without writing a single post to this blog since I’ve started.
I’m honestly a little disappointed that my year anniversary of creating this blog came and went and I didn’t do anything to “celebrate” it.
I started this blog mostly for me, not expecting much from it. Just an outlet for me to practice my writing and document what’s on my mind at the moment.
In the time that I have not been writing for this blog, I have been thinking of posts to write, just never sat down to write them out.
I don’t know why, other than feeling inadequate and that what I have to say doesn’t really matter. Or that an idea I have for a post is kinda dumb or I don’t have enough to say about it yet.
But also laziness. Laziness plays a big factor in it too.
Writing is work and sometimes I just don’t want to do it.
What can I say? It’s just the writing way sometimes.
But a few nights ago, I read a note I made on my phone last year and it brought me back to why I started this blog in the first place.
DON’T HAVE THESE THOUGHTS!
You won’t finish. You won’t be consistent. You’ll get lazy about it and stop eventually. You’ll run out of ideas. It’ll take too much time to do. You won’t find time to do it. No one will read it. It won’t make any impact on the internet.
HAVE THESE THOUGHTS!
It would be so cool to have your own blog. Do it for you, not to get readers. Take it day by day. It you want it, you’ll make time for it. It doesn’t all have to be good right away. The point is to learn from mistakes. It’ll be something to call your own. You’ll be putting your content out there. Do it for the little girl inside you that would think this is cool.
Needless to say, this was the perfect reminder I needed to get back on Digital Dream Catcher.
At first, it made me feel bad that the thoughts I told myself not to have, I was having.
But at the same time, I’m glad that I know myself well enough to help me get out of those negative thoughts and back into why I did this in the first place.
I also can’t be too hard on myself for dropping off on this little hobby. Quarantine and racial issues and personal stuff has taken a toll on my mental health a bit and I was working hard to repair the cracks as they showed up.
But maybe I need to let them be for a bit instead of pretending like they never happened.
Anyway, to my future self, I hope you think of this post again if you do come across a period of time where you find yourself deciding against writing about an idea you have for this blog.
Just do it because it’s fun.