I Waited Almost 3 Months to Read Midnight Sun

Yes, you read that right.

3 months.

It was because I checked it out from the digital library. I remembered when I initially put my hold on it, I was #17 on 10 copies. I thought I wouldn’t be able to get my turn until next year.

But alas! I was able to read it before then!

I’ll admit, I was a fan when the Twilight books first came out. I mean, they were all the craze when I read them back in high school. My friends and I were debating Team Edward vs Team Jacob through all 4 years.

I remember when Breaking Dawn came out, I took it with me on my trip to Hawaii. I read that thing the entire 8 hour flight to and from Hawaii, plus some time during the trip, and I still didn’t finish it.

That was also when I realized how annoying Bella was, haha.

With my dwindling interest of the Twilight saga, I did not see the two part Breaking Dawn movies until this year, out of curiosity. They were actually pretty good, and followed the books pretty truthfully, from what I can remember.

Rewatching all of the movies made me remember how problamatic Edward and Jacob’s possessiveness over Bella was. How was this a good example to set for young impressionable girls?! Even if Edward did love Bella in the most purest form? It was just unrealistic to me to make it seem okay to make one person your whole life and not know yourself without them.

So why did I put a hold on Midnight Sun?

Curiosity, mainly. I remember when Stephanie Meyers teased the book way back when, and I had wanted to read it.

I also wanted to see what Edward’s perspective in all this really was. And it was at least slightly comforting to know that he also recognized his ridiculous possessiveness and consciously made the effort to always give Bella the choice to be with him.

It was also interesting to see him always be one foot out of the relationship. Ready to leave as soon as he felt he couldn’t ensure Bella’s safety. It gave a lot of context as to why he left in New Moon.

But I’m curious to know what his side of the story in New Moon and what he was doing up until Bella met him in Italy. I’d also like to know his point of view in Eclipse.

And if we kept going this way, might as well rewrite the whole saga in Edward’s POV!

No, don’t do that.

Anyway, I also checked out the book for a bit of nostalgia. It’s kind of nice to go back to characters I’m familiar with and read some new stories. And Stephanie Meyers knows how to wrap you in with her prose. I love being so engrossed in a book that all I want to do is read.

A day full of reading is one of the most fulfilling activities to spend your time.

ATLA Drawing Inspriation

I wanted to share some drawings I did earlier this year that were inspired by Avatar: The Last Airbender. I was excited to rewatch this series, and Legend of Korra when they became available on Netflix. (Here is a post I wrote earlier this year about the show.)

In these drawings, I wanted to highlight some under represented cultures. It was also fun imagining what the Avatar universe fashion would be like in modern times.

Enjoy!

Fire Nation
Air Nomads
Earth Kingdom
Water Tribe

Am I more excited about our new VP than I am about our new POTUS? YES!!!!!

I am writing this on Saturday November 7th, 2020 and we have learned that Joe Biden has reached over 270 electoral votes and is officially our new president-elect!!!!

For me, it’s been a morning of periodic whoops and yells and claps and jumping up and down to celebrate and release the stress I’ve been feeling all week, waiting for the election to be called.

While I am RELIEVED to not have to think about what another four years of Trump (bleh!!!) would look like, I am more ESCTATIC to think about what it means to have Kamala Harris be our next Vice President.

We’ll have our first BLACK VP.

We’ll have our first SOUTH ASIAN VP.

We’ll have our first WOMAN VP.

All in one!!!!!

It’s hard to think of Kamala Harris as one thing because she contains multitudes. I am consistently wrapping my head around it and I don’t care if I never make it all around.

It’s not a secret that women are always scrutinized in a way that men aren’t, especially in politics. One of them being associating motherhood to a woman’s worth.

We praise women for being mothers and show it as a sign of wholesomeness and that having your own children is part of being a “real” woman.

That’s what was consistently told to us by Republicans during the Amy Coney Barrett hearings. She’s a mother and that’s what makes her a good woman and what makes her a good judge because she will think about her role as a mother when she’s making decisions.

While Harris has adopted her husband’s children as her own, she technically does not have any of her own biological children.

And she’s okay with that! She’s still fulfilled by her life and what she’s done! And she has plans to do more!

She was also not continuously framed by her motherhood, or lack of motherhood. Unlike Amy Coney Barrett or even Sarah Palin, the last woman to be on a ticket as a VP. Additionally, Hillary Clinton was criticized for how she conducted her roll as a mother by conservatives.

And let me be clear here. Women who chose to be mothers are also amazing and do incredible work. There’s a lot of… just everything that goes into it that I can’t even imagine and I respect anyone who wants to take on that challenging role.

What I’m saying is that society is consistent in telling women that you cannot be a “real” woman or there’s something wrong with you if you don’t want to be a mother in some capacity. (All the Single Ladies by Rebecca Traister has multitude of examples. Highly recommend the read.)

Men are never framed by their fatherhood. No one says, “Hey, he’s a dad, maybe that will show that’s he’s sympathizes with families and other dads will like him and relate to him.” And if they are eternal bachelors, no one bats an eye.

I am incredibly grateful to have Kamala Harris as someone to look up to and show that motherhood does not have to be a major part of your identity in order to be legitimate in our society.

Women contain multitudes and it’s time we appreciate them for it!

And in terms of Harris’ new role as MADAM VICE PRESIDENT (!!) I am thinking… I am hoping that she will surprise us with what she does.

Horror is as What Society Does

In the spirit of Halloween, on Saturday I watched It: Chapter 2. I had been meaning to see it, since I saw It: Chapter 1. Plus, I read the book about 6-7 years ago and wanted to see how the adaptation went.

I like to dive into a horror film every once in a while, especially if it’s been well received. I think horror should be taken more seriously as a genre than it has been historically because horror, once you get past the jump scares, is most notably a commentary of what’s happening in our society. Probably more-so than dramas or historical films. (Here’s an interesting argument for The Purge franchise, one I haven’t seen but I’ve heard the plot.)

But because it’s such a specific genre, like fantasy and sci-fi, it doesn’t get much recognition by the Academy Awards.

If you haven’t read It, Stephen King goes back and forth between the main characters (their group is called the Losers) as kids, meeting and fighting It for the first time, and as adults, when It awakes again and they come together and kill it for good.

In the most recent adaptation, the book is split into two movies: Chapter 1 for when they’re kids, and Chapter 2 for when they’re adults.

Part of the mythology about It that you learn as you read/watch, is that It comes to life every 27 years. After it wreaks havoc in Derry, feeding on the children, it goes away to sleep. Remarkably, the town forgets the tragedies it went through and write them off as some other cause or find someone to blame.

In Chapter 2, we find that the Losers have moved away from Derry and they’re living their own lives. When they are brought back together, most of them can’t remember what happened the summer they were tormented by It.

Mike, the only one who didn’t leave Derry, is also the only one who remembers what they went through and has to remind them. By keeping tabs on what was happening in the town, he was the one who recognized that It was back 27 years later and rounded up the group again so they could fight and kill it, once and for all.

This phenomena of Derry residents forgetting the tragedies that happened in their town can be related to how we’ve been dealing with racism in America for the past 400 years and how we shift our focus towards and away from systemic racism every time an egregious killing happens.

The story of another Black person being killed by police comes and goes on our news feeds and our TVs. We are shocked again and again by how deeply rooted racism is in our country.

We’re realizing that our thoughts and prayers aren’t going to cut it if there’s going to be real change towards driving out systemic racism and white supremacy. It’s been great to see people educating themselves, protesting, donating to causes, and spreading the word.

But we can’t stop.

We cannot become complacent. Our attention has to be focused on ending white supremacy at all times.

We have to call racism out for what it is, just like the Losers called out It for what it is. That’s how they were able to defeat it. (Sorry, spoiler alert.)

What’s scary is it’s easy to forget that racism is happening if it’s not happening to you or people you know.

Is it a coincidence that the only person of the Losers Group who remembered everything that went down with It is also Black? And that the ones who forgot what happened, who were able to leave and move on with their lives, where white?

Hmm… I think only Stephen King can answer that one for us.


ALSO, TOMORROW IS ELECTION DAY. HOPEFULLY YOU’VE VOTED OR HAVE A PLAN TO VOTE TOMORROW.

DON’T MISS OUT ON HAVING YOUR VOICE HEARD AND DON’T FORGET TO VOTE DOWN THE BALLOT!